It's so true what they say...

I'm on my third pregnancy and I always swore I would never be "that person" who doesn't put the same amount of effort into their later babies then they did with the first one.  WELLLLLL-- I may be eating my words on that one.  

It's not that I'm meaning to and in no way, shape, or form do I emotionally or mentally feel less into this baby as my previous kids, but geeezz... life comes at you and you're busy and before you know it... time has passed.

With Gavin and even Miles I stayed up to date with all the weekly pregnancy emails that were sent to my email, I'd look up websites for information, I'd read the book My Pregnancy Week By Week literally on the day that my weeks changed,  I'd NEVER miss taking my prenatal vitamins, I'd take a tummy picture every 4 weeks, I'd work on my child's baby book, etc, etc.  

With this pregnancy....  well...  hmm.  I don't think I'm doing as well as before.  I'm trying not to feel too guilty and realize that this isn't my first rodeo, but there's something inside my heart that makes me wonder how much this is going to continue into effect years down the road with little missy here.  I was the third child and sure, my baby book doesn't look like my brothers (I think SOME of the pages were written on) and I'm still okay with my life!  Haha.

I write all that to say that I'm going to start working on at least remembering I'm pregnant (it dawns on me when I go to get a soda out of the fridge or when I bend over and realize pee wants to come out (sorry, too personal, but it's happening and very early in the game I might add).  Yet, with all that being said, I do find myself wondering about my sweet Brooklyn and what she'll be like and who she'll become one day.  I'm already praying over the teenage years and our relationship and her relationship with Brooks and for her brothers to love her and protect her.  WOW-- it's kinda different with a girl and I never thought I'd say that.  

Things are going well with this pregnancy!  I'm 25 weeks today! WOO HOO and NO problems thus far! Praise Jesus!  I found myself at 21 weeks bracing myself incase something was to happen, guess it's all a mental thing, but things moved right along as smooth as can be.  I did the same thing with Miles pregnancy-- a little bit of worry and fear crept in at that same time, but all worked out.. Remember.  We've had several doctor's appointments in the past 2 months and Brooklyn is doing well.  She's measuring slightly big at this point and my doctor questioned the whole gestational diabetes thing (again)... UGH so I start that testing next week.  I feel great.  I move a little slowly, but it's not bad.  I'm actually not near as tired as I was and the Saudi heat doesn't and hasn't affected me at all.  I will say that my feet have already started swelling at times, which is new this early in my pregnancy, but whatever.  It's a part of my growing belly.  I'm taking progesterone injections again to help keep Brooklyn in my tummy longer so that's always fun on Sunday nights!  All I can think about when I'm crying like a baby because it hurts is Brooks' brother, Bran, and my one injection is NOTHING compared to what he faces every week.  So, I'm trying really hard to get over it!  

Gavin is excited about his baby sister.  When we talk about leaving the house to go somewhere and I tell him whether or not Miles is going to come with us (which always depends on if Delia is here) he wants to make sure baby Brooklyn is coming too!  Pretty stinkin cute if you ask me!  I'm grateful he cares about her already.  Gavin loves reminding me that my belly is big everyday, but also tells me I'm beautiful everyday!  I love that little guy!  

Brooks and I still haven't decided on a middle name for Brooklyn.  To be honest, I think we've talked about it twice and that's it.  See, just another thing to add to the list of baby #3's pregnancy not seeming like a big deal.  We will have to get on that name choosing thing pretty soon though!

21 Weeks